Intro 2010

Suddenly, in the space of couple of days, I found my vein again. Or maybe it was the other way around, and my vain found me for a change? Generally I’m not a superstitious person. However, it seems like all chaotically spread elements of my life make sense all together now, as a whole, as a path, as a story… When I’m looking back I can see the logic in it, and I’m pretty convinced that everything that happened, happened for a reason. I guess we often have this feeling of totality, when we think about our past, but in the same time, we experience our present randomly in the expectation of those “cool memorable moments”, those that we could recount without a shame to our grandchildren someday. Why shouldn’t we change it and create a story while it’s lasting? Why waiting for something that could never come, if here and now we have a real possibility to act and prove ourselves? I found my vein, I found my inspiration and I want to grow in it. I don’t want to be this bitching and moaning self-distracting, neurotic person anymore! For the first time I actually believe that the change is possible. Small scale transformation of attitude is my personal goal, and lately I’m finding my work in this context very stimulating. At the beginning, I started with the general who-we-are and what-we-want questions, because somehow, subconsciously I screamed for help myself. I didn’t realize that till now. However, what I also realized recently is that I can manage to solve my dilemmas without a „professional guidance”, which is a kind of a strange statement coming from a psychologist. Although this concept is very clear to me, it won’t be so easy to spread it further. By presenting Big Brother celebrity figures, our society made us believe that we are special and we deserve our dreams come true - each and every one of us can be a star. However, the same society concurrently imposed on us a stigma of ADD, arrogant, disloyal, illiterate almost children with a huge technical addiction, but without any virtues and values. So, here we are hurling with contradicted emotions, trying to conduct an existence of almost semi-gods, and turning our neurosis into a fashionable trend, but in the face of a slightest eventuality of failure we turn ourselves back to our parents, or we look for private coaches and professional image stylists. This mess it’s quite a story. It really is!